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Wednesday, October 20th, 2004
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I was listening to a CD i havent listen to in awhile and really like two songs. here they are.
Bouncing Souls - Punks In Vegas
I went away my friends and I
To the heart of darkness
Maybe not the best place in the world
But something always brings me back
All these days they’ve run past
Life’s going by so fast
All the best things that I have
No one can take them from me
Here’s to the memories
Wish I could always feel that way
So fucking out of my head
I was running at full steam
I’ll sleep when I’m dead
Maybe not the best day of my life
But probably in the top five
I left that place with such a high
I didn’t want to say goodbye
Here’s to the memories
Bouncing Souls - We're Coming Back (cocksparrer cover)
We're coming back, we're coming back
We're coming back to you
We're never gonna go away again
Hold on a little longer, try a little harder
'Til we're arm in arm together to the end
So remember, out there somewhere
You've got a friend, and you'll never walk alone again
Don't get worried, don't get scared
We're fighting to get there
Never doubt we're gonna get through
We're gonna run, we're gonna crawl, kick down every wall
It won't be long we're coming back to you
We're coming back, we're coming back
We're coming back to you
We're never gonna go away again
Hold on a little longer, try a little harder
'Til we're arm in arm together to the end
I hope you guys like the lyrics as much as i do.
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Tuesday, September 7th, 2004
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Missing In Action:
Blink 182- Self Titled(new one)
Blink 182- Enema Of the State
Bouncing Souls- The Good, The Bad, and The Argyle
If you have any information about the whereabouts of these CDs, please contact me by via comment or via cell phone if u have. I've seemed to miss placed them or something, i dont know. BUT, i need ur help.
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Give me some songs to download, whether u think ill like them or not.
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Thursday, August 5th, 2004
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My dad bought a new truck.
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This weekend was awesome.
We went up to New york for grizz's graduation party. It was at his uncle's houses. It was good too see his family they are all very nice people. We played so much poker and learned a lot of new games. We made smores and camped out in the backyard. Wegmans was awesome. We played they lottery. Alot. We cashed in beer cans from grizz's party and got 12 dollars.
Grizz's family call him Grizz too. Its really nice up there and it was anew awesome weekend with awesome people. And this summer is Awesome. Awesome.
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I have the West Nile virus i got it from camping....i have less than a week to live.
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One year. I dont know what to say. What can I really say. It doesnt seem like a year at all. It seems like it happened today. I remember me swimming in the lake at my camp ground. I hear my dad saying "Jay, come here i gotta tell you something." me saying to myself "What the fuck does he want now.", "I got some bad news............" I stopped. Went to the truck pulled down the tail gate and sat. and that was that. I never really experienced anything like this. I knew Andrew for a while. I used to play baseball and football with him back in the day. After that we didnt stay in touch cuz we were young. he went to his skool i went to mine. THen we worked together. Then we started some what of a band. and that was that. This still sucks. and will suck everyday for as long as i live. He was an awesome dude. he was the man. he made me laugh. He was Andrew.
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Wednesday, July 7th, 2004
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I cant wait to fucking go to college.
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Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
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Intro to Psychology- MWF- 9:00 AM-9:50 AM; Lab T- 7:45- 9:35
Intro to Criminal Justice- T TH- 3:00PM- 4:50PM
Intro to Anthropology- MWF- 10:15AM- 11:20AM
Music Theory I- T TH- 9:45AM- 11:45AM
Not bad if u ask me. MWF i get done at 11:20 so thats awesome.
Tuesdays are gonna suck waking up at 7:45 for a 2 hour lab. O well gotta do what u gotta do.
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Last night was the night we have all been waiting for since we started school. Saying "i cant wait till we graduate, school sucks." Now the day has come and people keep looking back. For me high school wasnt that bad at all, i mean where else could i get to see ALL of my friends that i care about under one roof? no where. Where else could i go and know that the same people willl be there every day. no where. It sucks just not able to see the familiar faces of people i never took the time to say hi too, it doenst matter if i talked to them or not, they were just there.
Graduation wasnt a big deal to me and it still isnt. Im no trying to rain on anyone parade my saying its gay to feel a certain way. Cuz its def. not gay. Sometimes i wish i could feel the same way you guys feel right now. But for me right now it just seems like its another, i still think i'll see familiar faces driving in the streets or walking in to a store and see some one you know. Thats why it hasnt hit me yet cuz i still feel like its just another summer. and that i will just see my friends next year. It wont start sinking in till i start saying goodbye to people. Im about to say goodbye to one of closest friends in about a week or too its gonna be hard. All the memories we had all the stupid shit we did, all the things we said we were gonna do and we never did them, thats what we did. Its gonna be so hard. And to watch people go one by one, until its I'm the one who is leaving and i look out my rear view mirror and see whats left of the people i care about and it sucks, right now im getting a little teary eyed and for all of you that know me, know i dont do that often. So it is a big deal but not until all the stuff happens. Its cool that we graduated a big accomplishment.
it sucks when i look back at the people that ive been going to school with but never really took the time to hang out with this especially goes to kids like: Pat J., Jeff, Colin and all those kids. To me those kids are really cool kids, It sucks i never hung out with them especially those 3 cuz ive known them the longest, we just had a different idea of what is fun and what is not and we have different views and stuff. Me and Pat have been in the same homeroom since 6th grade i think. Not once did i ever hang out with him out of skool. When we were standing in line pat was reminiscing about all the things that have happened it our homeroom over the years, I told him he was gonna make me cry. but he didnt, I told him to call me over the summer, and i sincerely think he will. and i hope so.
Then i look at the kids that i just met this year. it sucks that i only met them this year becuase ive become reallly close with them. it sucks that in 3months everything we were working for may be over.
Then i look to the kids that i wish were seniors. I.E. Tom and Shawn. I wish u guys couldve graduated with us it wouldve been ten times better. Cuz i feel like u 2 were a big part of us and it sucks leaving u guys behind, and i dont want to do it. But dont think im going to forget about you.
As far as keeping in touch with people. Im sure ill find a way to keep into with people i truely want too.
I really miss one person. alot.
IN 3 months im going away to college. Im ready. in 3 months u will read another entry that may be much sadder that this one but this is all i have for now.
I want to end my entry with a couple of rules. Because i think rules are good to follow for the most part here they are:
#1- Have fun.
#2- Dont forget what u did these past 4 years.
#3- Dont forget who u met these past 4 years.
#4- Dont stop the rock.
.....And thats the way the cookie crumbles
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1. I dont like you.
2. You dont like me.
3 Lets keep it that way.
1. I keep my mouth shut.
2. You keep your mouth shut.
3. Lets keep it that way.
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Wednesday, May 12th, 2004
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This past few days have been pretty messed up. A lot of shit going on. People cutting peoples heads of on a website. People torturing prisoners. People getting hit by vehicles. People beating their mom cuz she was giving them an attittude and the only reason he stopped is because he thought he killed her. People Drowning. Basically, people just losing all morals. it seems people just stop caring for the past couple days. Maybe they gave up. Not just certain people but alot of people, including myself, just seemed to be different the past couple days like a whole shift in the universe. You could blame things on poverty, unemployment, war, drugs, money, it doesnt matter. It just sucks hearing all this shit happening over a couple days. Everyday there seems to be someone dead on the news. Just recently did i notice all this shit. It sucks.
It sucks that a kid has to die when he is a simple teenager just trying to have a good time with his friends just like any of us would want. It sucks alot. I've been through it, a lot of us hjave been through. It hurts. I didnt not know Deshawn personally, i've seen him around, just another face in the crowd until the face isnt there anymore. It hurts. I feel for his friends and his family, sadly, i know what it is like to lose a friend, i wouldnt wish that on anyone. All this shit adding up it just seems like too much anymore. When are people gonna realize stuff, probably when its too late. and that sucks, alot. I dont know what else to say. Sometimes you just cant put stuff into words. sometimes it better to not say things. sometimes it better to say everything. You never know what to do. Say what you mean and mean what you say. Say whats on your mind and dont jsut say stuff to make someone happy. I;'ve been thinking alot lately kind of laying low keeping to myself, nice and reserved. I see kids fighting over stupid stuff that isnt gonna matter in 5 years. im not saying im perfect cuz i know i do/say stupid shit all the time. Thats me. No one is perfect. Its a Fact. I really dont know if any of this makes any sense to anyone i just kinda throwing everything together and trying to make sense of the recent things that have been happeneing. .
One by one, we are all going to leave this place eventually. We are going to watch each other leave and go on to new things. Another chapter in our lives closed, and a whole nother one opened. Its gonna suck, its not gonna be easy. Its life. Some of us might not talk to each other in the next 5 years. some of us will thats up to you guys. You can pick and choose, just make sure you pick the right ones. I just dont want to see kids saying " I wish......" dont wish u did something do it, i wanna see kids saying "dude, remember when...." i know you cant always do everything you want but atleast try. I just dont know what to say to make you guys realize stuff.
I dont know if you take what i say to heart. i hope so cuz i take it too heart. you guys can think what you want of this. i dont really mind. at least you read it and gave it a shot. thats all i can ask from you is your time and i thank you for that.
Hopefully things we go back to "normal" i hate to use that word cuz there is nothing normal. I dont know i just donw know.
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Its been awhile. Ive been laying low lately, keeping to myself or whatever. Dont know why just have been. I figure if i keep away from people now, i wont get frustratedd with them during the summer, cuz everyone knows when u hang out with people to long or too much at one time, you tend to get bored of them. In most cases anyway, but not all, call it what you will.
Im beat right now. I worked thursday nite friday nite saturday day and 2day.
Last nite was a pretty alright time, didnt really talk to anyone 1. i was tired 2. because of the 1st paragraphy ^^^ 3. No one really talked to me.
I wound up spending 44 dollars on food last nite. But o well. I think its pretty pathetic that we were argueing over fucking 3 dollars finally i just said fuck it(even though i put an extra 10 in from the get go), we probably wouldve stay there all nite, because i didnt see anyone else even make a move towards there wallet and no one showed signs of wanting to put the money in. But whatever you gotta do what you gotta do. I dont mind paying for people once in a while but when its almost everytime we go out and we were always short and its such a pain in the ass to get people to put money it gets kind of tiring and pathetic. so i made rules for when u go out to eat with a bunch of people:
1. Plan on spending a little more that you usually would.
2. Dont be cheap.
3. Know how much your food is.
4. Dont get things u cant afford.
5. Dont be gay about money.
6. Dont be cheap.
Some people are probably calling me an asshole for saying that but whatever, you'll get over it.
Anyway, happy birthday to wanda and megan.
Last weekend was Brian and megan's surprise party it worked out good and was a lot of fun. I hit jesse's and megan's boss's car, but i heard no word back on it. Me and Craig had a lot of fun BBQ-ing. He's a cool cat.
Florida in a couple days it should be fun.
Sometimes i just cant wait to go to college and/or live by myslef.
Things to look forward too:
Prom
Graduation
Summer
College
Thats all i got.
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WELL im BACK. for those of you that noticed i was gone, for those of you who didnt notice, stop reading now.
This week was awesome, No School, Vegas, Hoover Dam, Grand Canyon, and your best friend, with no arguements, in one week. A-MAZING.
First off Rules for Las vegas to enjoy it to the fullest:
1. You must be 21
2. You have to be single OR take ur significant other with you.
3. You have to have some money to waste
As you can see me and kern do not fit under any of those rules but im not complaining cuz it was fun.
First time.........
Being in Chicago, Nevada, and Arizona
Seeing the hoover dam, and the grand canyon
seeing acrobats
seeing the blue man group
Seeing / touching the colorado river
I ate Lamb
I ate RATTLESNAKE, yes RATTLESNAKE
I ate Krispy Kreme
Things we did:
Saw the whole vegas strip from a model of the eiffel tower that was 46 stories high
Hiked down from the top of the G.C. to the very bottom of it, the colorado river, and back up in 8.5 hours. despite all the signs saying "Do not attempt to go to the river and back up in one day, People have died from dehydration and exhaustion." Well i felt both, i was exhausted and dehyraded because my legs were cramping up like in football camp, do to lack of water. but i tuffed it out, plus i think im the only person in bensalem high school (besides kern) that can say the hiked all the way down to the bottom and up in one day.
Hit up a couple harley davidson shops
went to the everything coke and everything m&m's shop.
Checked out every hotel on the trip
road the roller coaster at the new york hotel.
saw the H. D. and the G.C.
went to the hard rock cafe in L.V.
********the best part of las vegas was the little old mexican ladies handing out porn baseball cards with nude chicks on the front wear neon shirts saying "Strippers right to your hotel" you could get 3 girls for 99 dollars.
The trip was awesome, and a very good experience. Thats it.
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Saturday, April 3rd, 2004
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well last nite was blue gray. gray won good job there shit was good. I won the tire pull. I was really nervous, but its always good to be nervous. I was talking trash to matt when we were going at. it was funny. Blue won the tug war though the ultimate challenge of strength and team work. We mat not be the best dancers but we are the tuffest dudes around.
I leave to go to Vegas in a couple hours. It should be fun. I'll be there all week. Try to go on with out me people. I'll miss you kids.
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Wednesday, March 31st, 2004
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- describe ?
-- Name: Alan Charles Jackson I
-- Birthplace: Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
-- Birthdate: November 18, 1985
-- Current Location: Bensalem, Pennsylvania
-- Eye Color: Blue
-- Hair Color: Brown
-- Height: 5'12"
-- Righty or Lefty: Right
-- Innie or Outtie: In-E
-- Your heritage: Irish, English, Swedish, Scottish
-- The shoes you wore today: Adios
-- Your weakness: Im too tuff for my own good.
-- Your hair: Getting Long and Dirty
-- Your perfect pizza: Tony's is awesome.
-- Your fears: I dont really have any i just go with the flow what ever happens happens bro.
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: 4 Years of College would be nice.
- what is ?
-- Your most overused phrase on aim: Whats going on? nice nice
-- Your thoughts first waking up: What the fuck.
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: smile/eyes/ come on dudes you know you all look at the boobs too.
-- Your bedtime: whenever
-- Your greatest accomplishment: HIgh School Football
-- Your most missed memory: Hooters with Mike and Andrew 3 times a week.
- you prefer ?
-- Pepsi or coke: Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: BK
-- Single or group dates: Single with a little mix
-- Adidas or nike: Adidas dudes i wore it all 8th grade.
-- Lipton Iced Tea or Nestea: Nestea
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee
- do you ?
-- Smoke: Nah dude
-- Curse: no.............YES
-- Sing well: def not
-- Take a shower everyday: no
-- Have a crush(es): chyeah meagan
-- Who are they: chyeah meagan
-- Want to go to college: Lycoming, yea i got a shirt
-- Like high school: Yea its a easy and get to see my friends every day .
-- Want to get married: maybe
-- Believe in yourself: sure
-- Get motion sickness: nah
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys: I dont know what the write keys are
-- Think you're attractive: personally, nah not at all
-- Think you're a health freak: i do my fair share of healthy stuff ex: drugs, needles, sex, and rock n roll
-- Like lightning storms: sure
-- Get along with your parents: most of the time
-- Play an instrument: Bass Drums and Saxophone
- have you ever ?
-- Drank alcohol: yeah
-- Smoke(d): nah
-- Done a drug: caffine and alchohol
-- Gone on a date: yea
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: prob
-- Eaten sushi: No
-- Been on stage: Yes
-- Been dumped: Yes
-- Gone skating: Yea
-- Go to the mall in the past week: Yea today 2 malls actually
-- Been in love: maybe
-- Gone skinny dipping: in my tub im a rebel
-- Dyed your hair: nah
- Currently ?
-- Current Taste: C.C. Cookies
-- Current worry: None
-- Current hair: Shitty
-- Current annoyance: YOU!
-- Current Smell: HA way to rub it in
-- Current thing you ought to be doing: looking for Scholarships or some shit
-- Current Desktop Picture: Bouncing souls
-- Current Favorite Groups: Bouncing souls, rancid, sometime in april, blink 182, dropkick murphys
-- Current Book: HA
-- Current Cd in your Cd Player: Rancid,Rancid, SIA
- have you ever ?
-- Played a game that involved the removal of clothing: nah im fat fat peopel dont do that
-- Been caught "doing something": yea play air guitar with a broom in the laundry room, my uncle caught me, he cant stop the rock though
-- Been called a tease: haa no never
-- Gotten beaten up: people no better than to even try
-- Shoplifted: Nah
-- Changed who you were to fit in: Im pretty sure at one point
- the future ?
--Age you hope to be married: whenever
-- Number and Names of Children: Gunther Andrew Jackson, Chyeah
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: As long as i get laid afterwards i dont care
-- How do you want to die: Doenst matter, drowing would suck -- Where you want to go to college: Lycoming chyeah i got a tee shirt
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: IM grown bitch
-- What country would you most like to visit: Ireland
- opposite sex ?
-- Best eye color: dark eyes
-- Best hair color? brown
-- Short or long hair?: long
-- Best height: shorter than me
-- Best weight: whatever looks good
-- Best articles of clothing: Shirts
-- Best first date location: where ever
-- Best first kiss location: where ever
- number of ?
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: alchohol underage drinking
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: I know who.
-- Number of CDs that I own: 60 maybe?
-- Number of tattoos: none
-- Number of Piercings: zero
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: a couple
-- Number of scars on my body: a few
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: i cant think of any right now but i know i have some
- are you ?
--superstitious: chyeah
--popular: people know me
--happy with yourself: sure im an asshole but at the same time a very deep compassionate dude that likes to totally ride the waves of the pacific ocean than hang out by the fire with some wine with bread and butter then go inside for a bubble bath while listening to luther vandros while pleasuring myself.
--open or close minded: both
--there for your friend and peers: you know it
--some ones enemy: probably a lot, i dont mind
--have enemies: YOU!
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Work is killing me:
Yesterday- 12-8
Today 4-10
Tuesday 4-10
Thursday 4-10
Saturday 8-4
It sux but its good at the same time. Cuz i need money for all the shit i wanna do: Vegas, FLorida, Prom/Shore, and some road trips here and there, and insuarance, and gas. It sucks. I barely see my friends. sorry kids. But this weds im chillen with mike and perhaps rob, always fun with those kids, friday is the show, so im sure mike and rob will be there, AND paul dave and steve who i miss as well and BILL C., i dont hang out/see these kids all the time, but i still miss them cuz they are all really cool dudes. On top of that, im sure other rad people will be there as well. THats it.
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Saturday, March 13th, 2004
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Wednesday, March 10th, 2004
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Last nite was a really good nite. I worked till 9 then met up with Meagan, Kevin, Bill, Andrew, Megan K., PJ, Cortney, Ilya and John at Wendy's it was good. Then Me, Meagan, Kevin, Bill, And Megan K., went to Cortney's watch Ferris Bueller. Meagan and Megan took Bill home. Then came back to Cortney's the five of us (me, meagan, kevin, megan and cortney) slept over Cortney's, it was really fun and a good time. I never slept so comfortably over someone else's house, minus the music. We made some beads, then Me and Meagan went left at 12. We got changed and went out to lunch and drove around. Came home, slept, ate, practiced. The past couple days have been really good for the most part.
P.S. Shopping Cart Mayhem is no more.
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Bouncing Souls are so good. I suggest them to anyone.
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